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22Nov/09N/A0

Contempt

I made this some time back in late '07 or early '08. I don't exactly remember why but I made this in a hurry. Perhaps that explains why its sort of crude and brute. I used only charcoal to make this. Let me know what you think about this.

hmm....

19Nov/09N/A2

Keep off the grass

I just started reading books a few months ago and I must confess I never choose any book that didn’t figure on any “best book” list on the internet. I did the same again this time; I read a lot of reviews and decided to read Flowers for Algernon by Daniel Keyes. I ordered for this book on flipkart and that meant a 21 day wait before it is delivered. Meanwhile, I had this book “Keep off the grass” which was a gift from my friend and I figured, anyway I had to wait for a long time so I could read “Keep off the grass” instead. Besides, it’s a small book; it had thick pages and big font.

I began reading this book and most of the book is based in and around IIM-Bangalore, this place is just about a couple of kilometers from my house. It’s a place I have been to a few times for Barcamps, Startup Saturdays etc and I could immediately see what the author was describing.  It’s a wonderful place and now I was getting to know how it is to be in IIM-B as a business school student.

I read on and I must say, I was very impressed and I loved Karan Bajaj’s work. I am guessing I being an Indian and having lived almost all my life in Bangalore must have had some effect in making me feel connected to the characters in the book. I mean the sleepless nights, college study methods, common hangouts, the talk, and the music they listen to and even the tiny things like quoting Gordon Gekko and Bud Fox often. A lot is quite similar to how things actually are here. I could belong in the story.

I loved this book and because it isn’t one of the most popular books, it got me wondering about all the books I have chosen to read till now. I am new to reading and all I do and perhaps what many do is to pick from the “best rated” or “most reviewed” on Amazon or from the “best sellers” stand in a local book store. I could have missed a lot of good books just because some 500 strangers on the internet didn’t like that book. I am not sure how else to make a choice from so many millions but it sure isn’t a good feeling to know that you are so dependent on strangers to make choices in your life.

And, it isn’t just a story of some students in a business school but the book also makes you think and connect to it. Well I can illustrate a few examples, there are pages contemplating if what you chase in life is success as defined by the so called “society” or is it following a dream or happiness. Or, after these mentions of following your dream is it also illustrates that everyone is not blessed with a vision like they wake up one morning and they just know that they were born to be an author. It’s true. I never had any definitive dream goal like that, even if I had, it kept changing always. And what I do now, well I enjoy that too. Would I have enjoyed something more? Frankly, I don’t know. Well, citing these two instances doesn’t even remotely do enough justice to the book. It’s a lot beyond that.

Another thing I enjoyed is how the author feeds the readers with some sense of choice through the story. The protagonist is contemplating some important choices in his life and somewhere between his thought processes there is a list of good books suggested. It’s like stuffing it in your face, use your head and don’t always choose books from the best sellers stand. That’s how some of them got there in the first place.

Good story, good content, good language. Good book.

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8Nov/09N/A2

The Catcher in the Rye

“The mark of an immature man is that he wants to die nobly for a cause while the mark of a mature man is that he wants to live humbly for one”

This for sure is the one of the best thing that I can take away from this book. This quote provoked thought, so did a lot of the book, and I must say it’s very true and it perhaps has more to offer than it seems like, just spare a thought. Well, I can say “It killed me”, just as Mr. Salinger’s protagonist; Holden exclaims so often.

To tell the truth, this book isn’t as depressing as it is described in thousands of reviews on the internet. I always make sure I read the negative comments on Amazon before  I choose a book to read. A negative user review of “The Catcher in the Rye“ described this book to be so depressing that the reader couldn’t pursue any further and had to give up reading it. In my opinion, that is quite an overstatement.

Well, the plot is designed that way; a teenage boy just expelled from school spends a day without friends and trying to stay away from his parents and meets some strange people and incidents along the way. Almost every teenager I know is the same, perhaps so was I when I was a teenager – rebellious, angry, believe you have got all life figured out etc. Holden isn’t too different. He is rebellious, he disapproves the phony society and its people; he is supremely confident how he could lead his life by getting away and picking up a job, his dilemmas, his state of mind. He is expelled and is trying to escape from his parents who naturally would be furious. He’s been drinking, smoking and is lonely and trying to beat it. That’s it. I don’t see this extremely depressing; I would say this perhaps is more or less something that everyone can relate to, of course in accordance to their own emotional magnitudes.

It is a very good book, I liked it a lot. It’s almost a cliché now in reviews of this book but I would yet say it again – I would have loved to read this book when I was a teenager.

This is a book has been a part of the American curriculum for quite some time now and it also is one of the books that has been analyzed and reviewed the most. I learnt this when I was researching about this book before I picked it up to read. Well I wouldn’t lie, one of the first reasons I heard about this book and decided to read it was because of its controversial John Lennon connection. Later, I found out it indeed was a classic.

I was curious to know how this book would be analyzed and interpreted and so it drove me to foray into many student forums, discussion threads where there were detailed character plots, assignments and deep analysis of small details in the book and some beautiful metaphors I had missed when I read it. For instance, Holden keeps wondering where the ducks would go when the lake is frozen but in fact he is trying to escape from a place where he doesn’t fit in or Holden’s hunting hat which he used to “shoot” people.

Just read the book. I bet you will like it.

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30Jul/09N/A2

The Real Catch-22

"Catch-22 is a term coined by Joseph Heller in his novel Catch-22, describing a set of rules, regulations or procedures, or situation which presents the illusion of choice while preventing any real choice." - Wikipedia, of course.

Now, this is the logic behind Catch-22. I just didn't borrow the idea from wikipedia but I read the book and this is more or less the same as I figured. But, I discovered something else too, the real CATCH-22.

To be frank, I barely found this book funny. The idea of an anti-war satire is admirable but the book just doesn't live up. For instance, It's got a protagonist whose character is so different from the stereotypical world war 2 characters, which have extremes of either pride or remorse. But, most of the satire in the book, believe me, isn't very funny. At least, not as much as the scores of reviews across the internet described it as. I read a little over half of the book, and I felt like I was forcing myself hard through it.

I felt, perhaps this is due to the extravagant reviews which set my personal expectations so high that the book seems to be below par. I read user reviews from both Amazon and Shelfari before bought this book and I remember, most of the reviews were so damn promising, I began believing this would be one of the best book I would ever read. One of the reviews was so compelling, it was actually mentioned that the reader literally fell off his chair every time he read the book!! Phew!

Now, getting to the real Catch-22 - The reader has the option of picking up any book under the sun. But, this book is present on almost all "All time best books" compilations and when coupled with these overweening and misleading reviews, it's almost impossible to escape from choosing it.
Damn! I should have believed those negative reviews about this book when I read them, but I just went with the numbers and now it seems like even I have contributed to the real Catch-22 as well. The least, I can to undo this, is to publish my real opinion about the book and that's precisely what this blog entry is.

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20Jun/09N/A2

Into the wild…

I saw this movie before I stumbled upon the book. I was, without any doubt, impressed deeply by the movie. It is a different kind of movie, and the fact that it’s based on a true story made me feel really good about it. Immediately after the movie I stacked up a little more awe and respect for Sean Penn. I always thought he was a great actor for the roles he played in “I am Sam”, “Mystic River” etc. But, this was a movie directed by him. Left me wondering, just how talented this guy is!!

The main difference between the movie and the book, though they tell the same story, is that – I feel the movie was made with the sole idea of glorifying Chris McCandless’s life, the choices he made, the things he did, the life he gave up, everything. But, the book gives a more impartial perspective of his life. With all due respect to Chris, in my opinion it takes loads of courage and resolve to do what he did.

It could be said that the comparison is unfair, the book as a medium has the luxury of being extremely detailed and without any limits whereas the movie has an acceptable time limit. Besides, understandably, the movie misses out on details for things that the book provides an extra perspective for. For instance, the movie mentions that Chris was deeply impressed by the writings of Jack London and his advocacy of the glory of living in Alaska, in the wild but the Jon Krakauer mentions in the book that Jack London merely did what he was best at, write, because he lived in Alaska only for a summer in his whole life and spent a huge part of his life amongst most modern luxuries. Chris unfortunately picked and walked the path that Jack London imagined and dreamed of, perhaps.

Another instance, the movie, perhaps for the lack of time, undermines some of the acts that Chris pulls off during his great trip. Hunting isn’t as easy as its shown in the movie. For many including me, it’s pretty easy as you see it – you pick a gun, miss a couple of shots and puff out swears then you are all smiles because you get a clean next shot. The next scene in the movie is the actor eating stuff that looks like fried chicken from a small pot of fire. But, in reality, it’s very difficult, as mentioned in the journal that Chris maintained, there are times when all that he has hunted down is a squirrel in few days. Besides, during a favorable season, the list from Chris’s diary goes like this (quoted from the Jon Krakauer’s book) –

May 28: “Gourmet duck” June 1: “5 squirrel” June 2: “Porcupine, Ptarmigan, 4 squirrel, grey bird” June 3: “Another Porcupine, 4 squirrel, 2 grey bird, ash bird”...

Having a dead porcupine in front of you with a bullet in its head, for dinner!! – Now picturing this isn’t as easy as I had seen in the movie.

I would say, watch the movie, read the book and then formulate your opinion. Its a beautiful movie and a very well researched and precisely written book.

Another interesting thing I liked about the book is where Jon Krakauer discusses the lives of similar people and the trips they took. And the most important thing I liked about the book is the bits published from Chris’s diary, passages he had highlighted from the books he read and relevant quotes from great works of literature. Here are a few I like -

I wanted movement and a calm course of existence. I wanted excitement and danger and chance to sacrifice for my love. I felt in myself the super abundance of energy which found no outlet in our quiet life - “Family Happiness” Leo Tolstoy

For children are innocent and love justice, while most of us are wicked and naturally prefer mercy - G.K. Chesterton

And of course how could I not mention it, Eddie vedder, he is one talented guy. WOW!! You listen to the sound tracks of this movie - the music and the lyrics; they just put the whole movie into perspective. If you watch the movie then you should listen to these tracks – Guaranteed, Society, Hard sun, Long nights etc. Amazing songs. Truly amazing!!

Well, I love the movie and I would recommend it. In no particular order, I would recommend both the book and the movie.

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3Apr/09N/A2

Confused

This was just a drawing that came to me some day, quite a few days ago, rather should I say I am not sure yet what to make out of it exactly :D .. Well, it is a crude charcoal drawing; on a slightly crumpled ruled paper (perhaps I didn't have any resources around that day). Anyway, I like this drawing. Let me know what do you feel about it? Pardon me for the picture quality, that's the best my camera could do.

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2Mar/09N/A0

Would it be even correct to look at oscar mania from an objective viewpoint?

Lets try. First of all, big congratulations to Rahman for breaking the deadlock for us Indians. He has to be credited for being able to pose for the press with an Oscar in each hand. Clearly, the reward is not only testimony for his work on Slumdog Millionaire but also the sea of musical scores and songs composed through his magical career.

At this juncture there are two issues that raises eyebrows. One, does the overall impact of the movie influence the number of times Slumdog songs are looped at our homes and offices? Two, if you sat down and listened to the songs from all the movies that Rahman has composed music for, would you rate Slumdog stuff as No.1.

I’d say YES to question one and NO to number two.

Yes, and a big one at that. A movie that has a wider reach and more impact simply due its production value is more obvious to get accolades for all its technicians and musicians and screenwriters and a whole host of cinema army. Undoubtedly, the larger picture elevates the value of its ingredients.

No, simply because most ardent Rahman fans would tell you (and its quite obvious) that the Slumdog tracks are no match to the romantic tunes of Roja or the anthems from Dil Se or the mystery of Bombay; quite comfortably placed several leagues higher. Its hard for me not to single out other Rahman work that are musically superior to the Oscar winning soundtrack.

This puts us in a judgmental dilemma. Are the Oscars the ultimate form of reward? Are they fair and objective to garland each category without shrouding their eyes with the widespread acclaim that the movie boasts off as a whole? Or is it the magic of the oldest rags to riches formula that has charmed its way to the big league? Or just the shocking truth of the Dharavi community?

If there’s anybody who could have made us proud, undoubtedly the first choice is Rahman. But a decade and a half ago for Roja, and again later for Bombay and I could effortlessly crowd the list.

Objectivity is almost contradictory to human nature and to second this Id say that the genius was always an Oscar winner, from the time we knew him,

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25Feb/09N/A0

The Undercover Economist – Tim Harford

The Undercover Economist is a decent read. The book starts off very well explaining 'who pays for your coffee', the subtle but very important economics involved in efficient pricing of a product, coffee, the scores of different businesses that come together in free market to make a small product like coffee possible (serendipity, it seems like), and similar interesting and clever ideas of some of the world's great economic thinkers simplified so that a normal person can understand. The most impressive parts were the most obvious but rarely noticed aspects like the reason for segregation of classes in trains and even some clever marketing strategies of IBM.

It's a book for the layman, there are no complex economic terminologies and jargons used in the book, and everything is explained with simple real life examples and with simple logic - what I would call 'Logical Economic reasoning’:D.
The book disappointed me when about 30-40 pages of a 250 page book were used to explain that corruption dampens economic growth - I don't have to read to book to learn that corruption hampers growth, more over this explanation was not much of any economic concept but was predominantly anecdotes of the author cheated by corrupt officials in a poor country.
The book ends well, China's economy and its secret for rapid growth, Effects of globalization, importance of trade. Comparison of growing economies - India and China, and their economic policy.

All in all - a decent read.

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25Feb/09N/A0

Everyone is capable of Everything

When I look up I see a million, when I look down I see another million, these are the odds of being a normal person. Well, may be no one has to be ordinary to experience this; perhaps every individual experiences this, even if he is on the extremes of the scale.

Now should I look up? For I could find the prospective dream path for the life ahead or should I look down, the competitive edge might give me a confidence boost and self belief, two essential ingredients for success.

I strongly believe that anyone can do any job in this world and can do it well. Any one can be lawyer, engineer, doctor, journalist, quizzer, sportsmen etc. They just need to have a driving force, a sense of responsibility, a personal want to fulfill needs, and then anyone will do anything and can do it well. For instance, let’s say a poor guy has a family to support and finds it hard to make ends meet, this guy might have always wanted to be a painter and he still does paint as a profession, but just to earn the money that sustains him, he has also picked up a part time job of a cartoonist. The driving force here is that he needs the money and if he doesn't do a good job, he might loose the job, so it's like this – he was never destined nor interested in being a cartoonist but he becomes a good one. This is just to illustrate that anyone can do any job, if necessary.

Now, I will take up success as a destination, simply because I cannot define success as it's subjective to the pursuer’s opinion and the field concerned. Let's say the person picks up a profession X, and the success as the person defines it is to reach a destination, like for a race driver the destination might be a race win or perhaps the championship which comes by hard work, meticulous practice and precision. Now this person we consider has a destination to reach in the field of X and undoubtedly hard work must be an obvious input. I still say that any person can achieve this feat, but it just would take extra effort to achieve the same destination. I mean, lets consider a driver who was always passionate about racing, had sharp reflexes and every ingredient to be a good race driver, he perhaps would need 10 laps to master a circuit and perform good, but on the other hand any normal guy can still perform the same way but would need a lot of extra effort to do it, like perhaps work outs to become physically race fit, improving reflexes by practicing simulations, practicing for about 100 laps to perform at par with the other candidate. So, my point is that it is possible to do it but it just takes a lot more effort and time.

This brings me to the point where a person has to identify what his field is or what is the thing that he can do best, this is the self realization. For instance, if i had to be an artist, then the only reason it is because I already have an edge over the others with me. So, if a person is destined to be a poet or a writer then it is because the person already has those qualities that are intrinsic that the others would take a lot of time to learn. May be a writer would draw inspiration to write about sorrow just by looking at an fly stuck in a spider's web, on the other hand perhaps a normal guy would have to live through a catastrophe and may be attain the same mental state as the writer after a whole lot of personal loss. So, it’s just the same destination to be reached but just that this person will have to travel a lot less to reach there.

I can't become a physicist now because if I start learning basics of physics now then perhaps I would take another 20 years to be well versed, at par with other physicists. Rather, I should look at fields that I am good at, and I am interested in.

This is where the power of the sub-conscious human brain comes into play. The mind is this wonderful phenomenon which involuntarily makes the correct and substantial decisions for us and lets of the other decisions to be made consciously by us. A strong mind doesn't have likes and dislikes, it just has choices. For example, if a person is working in a factory, say he handles a component in the manufacturing assembly line. If this person is buried deep in debt then he would have no complaints about his job but might as well look for an additional one to pay off his debt, but if he had no such immediate responsibility and if it was working out a little easy for him then is when the he would perhaps say my job is monotonous, I am not satisfied with my job. In the first case, the mind decided unconsciously for the person, quitting the present job was not even an option, but presented to his conscious self, the options of picking up another job or not, which were logical options available to solve his problems. In the second case, the mind decides that the persons life is comfortable enough to provide a choice to the mans conscious to decide if the job is monotonous or not. Perhaps we can say, emotions are just the circumstantial logical choices that are provided by the sub-conscious mind to the conscious, i.e. in simpler words, you cry only when you can afford to. You don't see a poor daily wage laborer's 14 year old son crying because his father did not buy him a PSP for his birthday.

Point, simple – You can do anything, all you need is a little bit of self belief and of course identify what you are good at so that you can use that edge over others to drive you ahead towards your goal faster.

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6Nov/08N/A2

Is Rahul Gandhi India’s Barack Obama ?

The world has witnessed Barack Obama come to power and I cant help noticing the number of people influenced, insignificantly perhaps, but its become a commonly used phrase overnight - "The change has come". A search for "Obama" and the immediate and weird consequences of this recent Presidential win ranging from Obama updating regularly on twitter to news reports of new born kids in a place as remote as Kenya named after Obama and even his wife. My point is that this man has serendipitously risen up as a ray of hope to all the people in distress. A sense of expectation and hope has suddenly sprung up from no where. I don't know if this man is actually committed or is just putting up an act which might be a burst of enthusiasm, a direct consequence of his recent formidable win, by showcasing an urgency in creating his radical-damage control policies to rationalize, but I am sure what he has achieved in terms of the backing of the whole world, is commendable.

Now the thought that cropped up in my mind is how to replicate such effects in India, I know it wouldn't be that easy considering that India is totally a different scenario, but it wouldn't hurt to bring up a suitable candidate who could represent and inject such change into the people. Well, Of all I could think of Rahul Gandhi, I think this would be a great time for the Congress Party to bring out Rahul Gandhi as the Indian equivalent for the Obama effect. Rahul Gandhi is no new comer into the political arena of India, he has been prominent in some geographies, but it would be great if he is marketed as the young restless blood, the jolt of revival in the failing times. This could work because the congress party has the wise men it always had, plus an added advantage if its coupled with some sense of a promise of young renaissance into the Indian system. It could be a very small section of the vote bank that is targeted by this, the young 20 to 30 year olds of the urban educated population, but it wouldn't hurt when it can increase Rahul Gandhi's reach from a few certain geographies to demography.

I guess with a conscious effort and some wise vision, this could happen, Rahul Gandhi can be portrayed as the Obama of India and perhaps given a chance he will deliver.

We have huge problems to deal with, we need someone able to do it, and we have got to decide wisely. For instance, the IT sector of India - we don't need governance that would subsidize IT, to try to revive it during its fall but we need governance that could see what big next is and make the scenario favorable for that to flourish.

If branding and believing in Rahul Gandhi as the Obama of India can help then why not?

So here it is - My tiny effort to start with. :)

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